Alone.

I feel like I am alone in this world. All of my friends seem to be having kids. Getting Married. Have boy friends or girlfriends. Are going amazing things. Or are traveling the world. But me? No I have not done or had any of those things yet. And I am 21 next month. I feel like I am always 2 years behind everyone. Most of my grade had boy friends or girl friends in school. I did not have one until after. Probably a year and a half after. Most of my friends have traveled. I am only starting to travel next year. Most of my friends have had numerous partners. I have only had one.

Maybe it is because I live in St George that I feel the way I do. We have a very limited choice in men here. I think it could almost be as extreme as 3 boys to 1 girl. Whenever I meet someone, They are too young. They are not looking for a relationship. They have children. They are engaged. Or they have a girlfriend. I seriously do not know why I bother even searching and going out sometimes.

I have always been a hermit. And I like it that way. Life is simple when I can read a book. Stay home in my trackies. Instead of going out. Getting hit on my fat, Balding men. Or by "Bogans" I feel comfortable at home. I feel comfortable not having to prove myself. I think that I am weird. And awkward. And stupid. An idiot. Uncontrollable. Loud. Not like the rest. And I think that if someone gets to close to me they are going to get scared. Or freaked out because I am "Odd" I prefer to stay home. Maybe from now on that it what I will do. It's easier that way. Things will happen eventually. I am not putting myself out there anymore.

HEY YOU!!

Yeah, you. I walked past you today. I wanted to laugh and point. But Didn't. I dunno why...

I still get sick every time that I look at you and it has been years... When I step back and look at our friendship I realize how immature you are. I really am glad to be away from all of that mess. We had an awesome friendship, but all good things come to an end. I look at your life and I would hate to be where you are. You may think you have it all, but I am telling you now. YOU DON'T.

My life has been great since we fought. I have moved on and up. I have amazing friends and have done amazing things. All without you. I am proud of where I am. I have a full time job. I have money. I have an awesome family and friends. I have no debt. And I am loving life. All without you. I hope if you ever do read this, it hurts. I tried being nice to you. But you did not even reply to me. So Fuck you I say. And good riddance.

... Nothing too interesting ...

I find reading other people's blogs fascinating...

... FINALLY, A post ...

Yeah I know, I have been lame. I haven't posted on here for ages, But I do have an excuse.

I have been busy. DA DA DAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

I know that it is a pretty weak excuse, but it's true! I have been living it up in the big smoke, wasting my days away eating Sushi, ice skating, shopping, watching movies, relaxing and catching up with family.

All in all it has been a pretty EPIC week.

Every time that I leave Brisbane I get so sad, there is so much there and so little where I live It's annoying. Sometimes I feel like I am living in a box and I am prepared to get out.

One day I shall be living in Brisbane! :)

... Good Quote ...

At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.

Some are runnign scared, some are coming home, some tell lies

to make it through the day, others are just now facing the truth,

some are evil men at war with good, and some are good

struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion

souls and sometimes all you need is one. - One Tree Hill

... Frozen ...

So it really is time to pull out the slippers, beanies, socks, gloves, jackets and scarves!

This morning It was -1 degrees! My car had ICE on the windscreen and I had to scrape it off with a piece of plastic, it was totally insane and FREEZING!!!!!!

There was steam coming out of the gutters and there was ice all over the side of the road!

I really wished that I lived where it did snow, yeah it would be freezing but it would be so beautiful.

I'm going to try and take some photos tomorrow morning so that you guys can see what I see!

Aimee Out!

... Just having a rant ...

I know it has been a while since I have made a post and I thought that it was about time that I did! It has been too long, And your supposed to keep these things up to date right?

So here I go... In this blog post - Like my title suggests I am going to have a rant. I have been stressed and this blog seems like the only place where I can have a de stress session!

But to start off I'll take it slowly and then just type whatever comes flying from my mind to the key board!

This past week I have been taking Charlie on walks/jogs, he loves walking around and so do I. I would love to say that it's a great time to have a think and chill lax but for me it isn't. I don't really think about anything at all, like never really. Now that I'm getting older I seem to find myself thinking less and less and doing things without even a second thought.

It's like I don't really care anymore, and everyday worries, thoughts and pressures don't seem to faze me or matter. I'm content sitting back and watching the days go slowly (and sometimes fast) by.

When I do have thought's though it's always about something stupid like -

"Ohhhh Look at that bird, isn't it pretty? I wonder why it's going that? Where is it flying to... I wish I could fly, Now THAT would be awesome!"

So do you get the picture yet?

I think about random insignificant shit that no one really gives a fuck about! - But I wouldn't have it any other way. It's better than being a mindless drone and only thinking about and liking things because you have been told to.

AND While were on the subject on only doing things because were told too! What's the go with Kevin Rudd! I thought that he was a great leader! He saved us from major economic downfall unlike in the USA The stimulus package was a great idea and it saved our country!

Sure there have been a lot of broken promises! - But broken promises happen to everyone, everyday!

And if the Australian public is stupid enough to actually believe what the Labor Party promised when they were petitioning for government you have got to be mentally challenged! You should know that politicians only say the things that they think people want to hear even if it is the most ridiculous and impossible thing to deliver!

Seriously, some people need to grow up and grow some brains while they are at it! In my personal opinion Australia is turning to shit! Not to sound racist in my following statement but she is female, has no idea what she is doing, Looks like a fuck head and to top it all off she is a fucking RANGA!!!! (Sorry Bruce if you read this! I love your red shaded hair! Xx! ha ha!) but come on... What are you thinking!

I personally think that it should be put to the Australian public's vote to choose who we want to lead our country! We chose Kevin Rudd for a reason. We should be able to choose who we want in government now!!!

Sorry to all of the people out there who are reading this!

I'm a very angry person today and I'm sorry if my views have upset you... But no offence this is my blog and if you don't like it! Deal with it, or just don't read it, because I'm in such a bad mood today, I don't really care!

Aimee out! Xx!